I have rooted my Nook, and gained access to Android. While I am certainly enjoying the additional functionality, I feel no sense of accomplishment. This is really the efforts of others. To them I say thank you.
We have had a great vacation at Dragon*Con, and as always my wife and I are feeling the need to DO somethung creative. I am really feeling the brewing spirit, so I am going to pour some more effort into my beer brewing.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Enjoying other people'cleverness.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Once is an oddity, twice a coincidence.
My wife says to me," I believe you need counseling." She is the third woman in my life to have said that.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
I have been a little slow...
My parents have never been what anyone would call involved in my life. My Dad was usually focused either on my mother, work or my step-mother and her kids (after the divorce). With the exception of my time playing tee ball baseball, Dad was never interested in doing much with me. I usually spent most of my time with my grandparents at their farm. When I left for college, I rarely heard from either of my folks; until they announced their divorce. After the divorce, I spent some time with Dad until he remarried. Then I got out of their way. Dad had some tough times while I was away, he lost his business and went bankrupt. He went to work for a corporate pharmacy and lost the autonomy that he had enjoyed as an owner. After we reconnected a little, I often heard how he wanted to be involved in my life. In fact I heard this from all my relatives. No one was really interested in actually becoming involved, but they loved to tell me they wanted to. For the most part of all this, I did not care. I had my friends. I had people who wanted to listen and let me listen. We helped each other try to be better people. Being a good person really is not an easy task. Try to define good, seriously try it. Get some paper and pencil and I guarantee it will not really satisfy you. The bible has tons of stuff they say is "good" but that's just rules. They never define good, ever. You would think that would have been high on the priority list. Anyway, my friends were my family. They were my brothers and sisters, lovers and enemies, saints and holy folk. And they left me alone when I really needed them. I looked at my actual brother and sister and they are great people, but I don't know them like I know Josh, Scott or Spinosa. I really needed someone to say," Hey, let's go grab a beer." or "Dude, do you need to get away from this for a few?" and not one of them stepped forward. It hurt and continues to do so.
My wife doesn't really get how I handle my family. Hell, I barely get it sometimes. You just have to remember that your just an observer. They like to talk and eat together, then we all separate and no one has to do anything that might actually inconvenience them. It's easier that way.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
A long vigil.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Joy and Sorrow.
Yesterday was Palm Sunday at church. Among the Episcopalians, it is a joyful day. We celebrate the arrival of Christ in Jerusalem with noise makers, palm cross', and a reading of the Passion. It has always been one of my more favorite services. I could barely keep from crying this time.
My father is dying. In the very real "death bed" sense. I had dreams of him, my son, and me going fishing, car camping, and my dad teaching him to throw a baseball. All of those hopes are gone now. I do not see him ever rising from this bed. He has gotten so weak, he can not even speak. We have to get him to squeeze our hands to understand his wants. I have never felt so far away from him.
He has been angry this past week. I get why: he is dying and we cannot understand that until we are there. Anger is just the symptom of his fear. He has always claimed to be unafraid of death, but now he is at its door and he is unsure. That in a nutshell is the difference between belief and knowledge.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
I'm on a tear.
I have been getting short with my wife lately. Mostly, whenever she asks me to do something it comes out bossy as hell. I snap right back at that. Also whenever she looks at my chores, I feel like she is looking for the flaws. It upsets me. She is my wife, not my nanny or keeper. It is just getting harder and harder to not get mad.
On the bright side, I might have made it back into my boss' good graces. More on that later.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
What is that worth.....
I missed out getting to run so much as the five kilometer race today. I could blame life just getting in the way, but really it was just my laziness. I am going to have to make the time to exercise. I will run a half marathon before this year is over. I will be able to ride my bicycle to and from work. I will learn to paddle whitewater with some confidence. These things I swear to myself.
By the way, if you are using Chrome as a web browser get the typing tutorial from their web app store. It has done wonders for my typing. I almost have my pinky finger working.